I am done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It hasn't been since September? wow what happened. I am finished with the treatment and have been off for a month feeling much better. A lot has happened the last few months well since september have been very rough physically, but I made it through with all your help and prayers.

I have to wait until sept to check my levels but I feel positive everything is good

Hello out there in cyber world

This week was not to bad as far as being sick and having side effects. Thanks God!

We went to the farm on Thursday, we went fishing. 

Willow caught 3 fish she was so excited it is so great to see her excited and  

experiencing things for the first time.

We had a blast and it felt good to be outside for a few days. I am taking the rest of the week off and goofing off.

I go back to the Doctor on Thursday to get my test results and then I have to take Willow to 

the Dentist for her first visit fun fun.

I had Bob and Donna Kelly come over yesterday (Sherri;s parents) I was so nervous about that for some reason. 

I guess I have always felt that a lot of my relatives from my grandparents era always thought I

was a drugged out freak( which I was for a long time) but because of what I thought 

they thought about me. I would never interact with any of them that much.

However I had a great time visiting with them and starting to realize that 

as my parents and Sherri;s parents and some of the older relativies in the family get older. Sherri and I will be some day the elders of the family 

now that is some scary shit right there.

I also notice a difference in the way us younger people seem to be in a big hurry 

and don't spend the time to just sit and talk and tell the stories that make up our lives. Listening to our parents talk and tell stories was great and I was glad Bob and Donna came over and I felt stupid for being so nervous about having them over,

They are really good people !!!!

22 more shot and counting

Whoa this was a hard shot got so sick last night.   I was up all night sicker that a dog. Feeling better today.  Dealing with  my daughters  dysfunctional life.  To old for that shit oh well. Sleeping with Zoie all day  makes ya tired she is a good snuggler. 

 I am so glad I started this treatment  it has been rough but i am positive  it will work. I am really sick of being sick but it is doable and obtainable..

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1/2 way done with this S*#t

I took my 24 shot yesterday 24 more to go. It appears to be going better although I am somewhat hesitant to say that because as soon as I do it gets worse (but not this time). 

I really want thank everyone for the support.

Especially my cousin. She helps me so much with bringing me water to work and just general cheerleading.

She has come so far in the last two years and I am so proud of her.  I now know this was all Gods plan for me to help her so she could help me. Good one God!

BAby

I am a grandfather!!!

08/05/08

Zoie Keyndra Renea Ecker 

4:30 sunday am

Back to the sleepless nights. o yea!!. One of the thing that just drives me crazy is the unpredictability of this medicine. Sometimes I take it and I have no side effects. Other times I get real sick right away or two days later. Sometimes I sleep really good, other times I am up at 4:30 am typing. I don;t know what the variables are that make the difference. Never knowing what to expect really makes it hard to plan for the day.

On the brighter side I have taken 21 shots almost half way there  I can hardly believe that. Time flys when you shoot poison in your body (ha HA). 

Any way thanks for all your thoughts and prayers they help!!!!

It's been a while

Wow almost a month. It's been all I could do to watch Willow at night and go to work in the day.  Doesn't seem like a  lot but it wears me down. I have been pretty sick this past month not sure why but it seems to be better. I am losing my hair a lot of hair. It freaks me out. I am to vain to be bald, maybe. I had a lot to start with, maybe just the grey will fall out ha. I am hanging tough one day at a time still sick of being sick and limited but I know it won't always be like this there is an end it seems like a long ways a way but it is closer every day