Sunday 4-20-08

 Wow  What a weird weekend I took my shot on Thursday. It's kind of strange it all most makes you feel like you go into a cocoon and for two days and then its like you just emerge on the third day and it like where have I been for days  am I alive I have felt pretty good all day got out and did work mowed  cleaned and repaired  the duplex. 

All and all I think these shot are getting easier. It is just unpredictable one week not to sick next week really sick some consistency would be nice 

Friday

Rough week been pretty much sick all week physically. Work is kicking my ass So sick of stupid people making decisions that totally effect other lives. And all those people think about is  money and no regard for the human aspect just take care of # 1 and fuck everybody and everything else. MAkes me sick to my stomach.

I have this "friend" who has continuously  sent me emails that are very racist. I had told him several times to not send me that stuff because it is negative and not my views. Finally I had had enough he started attacking Barack and I emailed him and bluntly  told him don't send me racist emails. He replied fine and I won't associate with you any more either. Man I went off I told him I had the right to ask any one not to subject me to views like that and if me asking that was enough for him to end our friendship then it wasn't much of a friendship so i did not loose much. I have been friends with him for a long time even though he moved to Seattle we still have been friends. It really hurt my feelings. But it also lets me see why people with attitude like his are a big part of why this world is like it is. I was taught Mitakyue Osysin (we are all related) that to me means all people not just Indians or just white or just black all people and to foster though negative racist mindset goes against everything I believe in. I also believe that people have the right to believe however they want. But don't try to force those views on others

it just really hurt to lose a friend over something so stupid

Ok I am done I can't sleep waking up thinking about this so I thought i Would   write out and go back to bed all I can do is pray for him and other who hold that same attitude

Friday 4-4-08

Had a fairly good week this week took my shot last night, not bad. Have felt fairly well most of the day tired and sore but not real sick. So that is good. Not much to say went to the Doctor the other day  and had my first month check up He said everything looked fine Keep on doing the medicine and injecting poison in my body and come back in a month